LIFE the journey of all journey's

We are all searching for something, we all want a purpose to live for.  I’ve spent my whole life trying to not fit in cos I didn’t want to be like other people.  I wanted to be me, but I didn’t really know how.  I got involved in bad relationships, drugs. religion, made many bad choices. And my life spun out of control.  I started to wonder what this was all about, and what my purpose was here?  I’m not going to try and tell you I have all the answers, cos I don’t, and the older I get the more I realise how little I actually know.  For me, I’m starting to realise that life is our purpose…  For me personally I believe my sole purpose in life is to get to know Jesus… I know… it sounds ridiculous but honestly… The more i get to know Who Jesus is to me… Not to anyone else… but to me… the more I realise that life is not just this purposeless thing that has been forced on me without my permission, but everyday is a new gift given to me for the sole purpose of allowing me to get to know Jesus more and more.  And the more I get to know Who Jesus is the more I love and appreciate the gift of life.  Your life is your project.  Make the most of it. We do that, by taking Jesus by The Hand He is offering.  If we look deep within, we find the answers, cos He lives within all of us.  Every single one of us has a little space deep down inside of them, whether they will acknowledge it out loud or not, does not change the fact. And the fact is we all have that little empty spot. We try to fill it, with drugs, sex, relationships, eating, lying, gossiping, anything else But God. He created us with that gap, cos we are not mean’t to do life alone. We mean’t to do it with Him. I’m on a time-out at the moment because, somehow, over a period of time, things have drifted in, and other things have drifted out. My time of drifting is now over. Time to get focused again. Time to FIX MY EYES ON JESUS. He is my happy place. My world is right, and I don’t worry about anything cos I know when I’m with Him, everything works right. Not perfect. But perfectly imperfect. He is Perfect in my imperfection.

look deep into nature

We have been given an awesome planet to live on.  How much do we even appreciate it?  How much time do we take to go and get out into nature and see what God has created, just for our pleasure.  For me, there is nothing better than being out in nature, I soak it in, it feeds my soul, and it shouts out to me the Glory of God. God speaks to me through His creation, every time I see the sun rise or set I hear God shouting His love for me.  When I sit by the ocean or take the time to look at His creatures, I hear Him shouting out His love for me. My heart breaks for what man has done to our beautiful planet.  The sickness of animal abuse and cruelty. I mean we don’t even love ourselves, right so how can you expect “man”, the so called intelligent species…. (I know right… hehehe what a laugh), to love others. If we can just keep that ONE commandment…. Love The Lord your God with all your heart and mind and soul, and love other’s, as you love YOURSELF. And therein lies the problem. ONE CANNOT GIVE WHAT ONE DOESN’T HAVE. If I had to say God made a mistake it would be that He created human being’s and gave them free will. Human beings are the virus of the earth. We are slowly strangling and killing the very planet that sustains us. That sound’s pretty fucking stupid to me. I am not a fan of the human species. I keep my circle tight, very tight. I love my furkids more than I like most people. Think on this… Human beings are the only specie ever created that is in need of Forgiveness from A Saviour….. HMMM CHEW ON THAT FOR A BIT.

I don’t think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains.  (Anne Franks)

To walk in nature is to witness a thousand miracles. (Mary Davis)


just living is not enough

I’m a dreamer, and getting mixed up with substances didn’t help cos all I did was dream “high”.  I never followed thru on any of my dreams.  When God helped me to clean up my life (something He has had to do a LOT), I didn’t know what to do with myself.  I was alive… but I was not living, I didn’t know how…  I decided to start trying different things.  I went bungie jumping a few times… Loved it. But that bug left me kinda quick, lol.  We went river rafting, and hicking, we went abseiling. And we went rock climbing… WOW… the bug bit and Barden (my hubby), Jono (my son) and I loved it.  We went climbing every opportunity we got. Climbing outdoors taught me so much, about life about perseverance, about not being afraid to fall.  Climbing taught me a lot about faith and my relationship with God.  Being out on a mountain half way up a rock face wall, trying hard to find your next hand grip, or where you can move your foot to.  No matter how long it takes, having the determination to get it right, if not today, then tomorrow.  This is something I’ve neglected for a long time, and my life is more empty without it.  But… watch this space… I’m going to start again and you can experience the journey with me thru my blog.

“And at the end of the day, your feet should be dirty, your hair messy and Your Eyes Sparkling…”In the end we only regret the things we didn’t do.


adopt the pace of nature

We can learn a lot from nature.  We are connected to our environment and if we can start looking around us and appreciate the beauty of our world we will realise that hard times and struggles are all a very necessary part of life.  Nothing good comes without a struggle.  Look at the caterpillar and the butterfly…. never would you say that something soo beautiful comes from something so plain.  Watch the caterpillar spin that cocoon, its a long hard process.  He doesn’t rush it, he takes his time and he spins it perfectly.  Once he is done, he hides away inside and a transformation takes place.  The butterfly once fully formed then needs to break out of that cocoon.  If you watch it may look like that butterfly will never break free from its prison.  I’ve even heard of people thinking they will help the butterfly by giving it a hand to get out of what seems to be a life threatening problem.  But if we do help we cripple that butterfly for its life… as short as it may be.  That struggle the butterfly goes thru to get out the cocoon is actually building muscles and forcing parts to work that it will need to live the life it was designed to live.  Same with us, the battles we go thru in life are there for a reason.  Those battles build us and give what we need to live a successful life.  As the bible says… “Consider it pure joy, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, NOT LACKING ANYTHING”.

The people who say “it’s impossible”, must get out of the way of the people who are busy doing it.

if Creation Praises You, so will I

I cannot look at nature, and doubt that God exists.  Since I started a relationship with Him, I have seen Him at work in my life, I have experienced many many miracles. This however is not the God that I learnt about in the church, sadly enough. I need to say something before I go any further… I have issue’s with “the church”, which I am busy working on, I am a work in progress, and I’m hoping this blog will document the progress and hopefully be an encouragement and hope for others who can’t believe in the god of the church because the church has made Him as mean and miserable as what they are. When I talk about the church I mean the religious people. The one’s who judge you for your life, which hangs out for all to see, but they make excuses for their own private secret sin’s.  That’s where my anger comes in. And I am not alone, it even pissed Jesus off.  Go look in the bible and see who He told off… all the time. It certainly was not the sinner’s, like you and I, no, it was the religious leaders. They are the one’s who pissed Him off and they are the one’s who killed Him.  So, you got to see why I love Jesus man… How can I not. Over the years I have been addict, liar, thief. broken, lost, tired. scared, angry and confused and yet I have still had a relationship with Jesus. It hasn’t always been the best relationship… from my side. I’ve been real with Him wherever I’ve been at, and He has been with me every single step of the way. I never realised it at the time, but when I look back I see His Hand and His Love EVERYWHERE.  You will read a lot about God in my blog, cos He is part of my life, so I cannot talk about life and not mention God…  This is not the god of the Religious. This is The God of the ragamuffin’s, the broken, the weak, the outcast’s, the one’s who feel that they don’t fit in. You don’t fit in, because you were never mean’t to fit in. You were made to be you, SO BE YOU.

God Loves Us For Who We Are And Not For Who We Should Be, Because None Of Us Are Who We Should Be. So Be Who You Are.